Trying To Find Home Again

I am a long time traveling from my home

The one I shared with you

I sometimes go around in circles in my house I bought that doesn’t feel like home

Home was with you

I am a long time traveling from me

I have not been able to find home within myself

I feel like a body that carries a mind that isn’t always a friend

A mind that doesn’t provide comfort when I need it

A body that is strong and maybe even pretty

But I am not in it

I live away in my mind and sometimes

I observe me watching me

As if I am watching a movie

And I feel sad for me as I watch because 

I look so lost

Looking for a home within myself

Most often I run all over the place

Any place to travel away from me

Only to end up weary and exhausted

Finally falling into sleep in front of the TV

Only to do it all over again the next day