AaronandDenise

I remember feeling safe, secure, a part of 

Us

I still feel the feeling of him upstairs as I was cooking

The joy of being part of us

I knew I had him to take care of everything 

And me  

What I didn’t know was that it was

Special, different

Not to be had again

It was just was

There was not much of me, mostly all we

And it was for so long, days, weeks, months, years, decades

Always we and us

Aaron and Denise 

Even the kids got confused and asked, “are you Aaron or Denise?”

Our name was one name AaronandDenise 

I was so used to it, taken for granted

I just didn’t know

And then there was only me

I remember when I woke up in the middle of the night 

And there was another in my bed

But as I took in the deepest breath a gasp came out and I realized with all of my being

I am alone 

I am not a we

I am not an us

There is only me and I am sad and afraid 

How could I have not known that it was so special, not to be had again?