Anxiety and I Are Longtime Friends…

Anxiety and I are longtime friends

We got acquainted when I was 3 years old

It found me when I awoke to hear my mother screaming and crying that she was going to call the police

Because my father had come home drunk yet again

My father who I adored pulled the phone out of the wall and I got between them and yelling, “stop, stop, stop!”

But they pushed me aside, dismissed me and kept fighting

After that, I went to the doctor often with a stomachache

The diagnosis was a “nervous stomach”

As the years passed by, I had but only one prayer every night

“Please God let me sleep though the night” 

Anxiety and I deepened our relationship when one night I woke up in my bed to a knife at my throat

And soon after, I had Aaron to help manage my friend anxiety.

He was my safety and security

And after 20 years he was gone

Anxiety and I reconciled in a reunion that opened up a giant vat of grief and fear that had been below the surface for decades 

It has been 5 years now and I temporarily found a way to make peace with anxiety

Their names were Don and Bryant

But I just couldn’t take it anymore

So I made them gone

Anxiety and I are finding a way to co-exist in peace

But now there is Jimmy

And I will not allow him to make my friend go away

Me and my BFF anxiety are going to walk this path together until anxiety is just a thought from the past

And Jimmy can just be a source of joy and love for us. 

Jimmy is a really busy man and anxiety wants to ruin it for me because she is afraid

But I will not let her sabotage it just so she feels better for a minute

I can handle my friend anxiety now