When I Hear Your Voice I Feel…

When I hear your voice I feel

Calm, my voice gets softer and my breathing is slower

I feel like all is right in my world and there is no place to be

Other than talking with you

When I hear your voice I feel

Cared about and valued

I feel excited and breathless at the same time

And safe, secure and peaceful

The sound of your voice creates great longing deep inside me

In a place I didn’t know existed within myself

When I was with you I felt

Beautiful and wanted and turned on

I wanted to touch you and have you touch me back

When you kissed me and held me

I felt calm and safe and most of all

I felt home

Your hands touching my face brought on feelings of being cherished

I feel such longing for you

It is so scary and new to me

I love how I feel when I talk to you

But sometimes it is too much

And I push you away

Did I push you away forever this time?

Is that why you did not call me back today?

What would you have said if I would have picked up the phone last night?

But I didn’t and when I reached out, you were not there

It has been a long, painful day

Waiting for you to call me back or at least text me

And I saw you on the dating site tonight

Probably chatting with others but

Not talking to me

Are you gone for good?

Did I scare you away with my flirty text?

I felt so vulnerable texting that to you yesterday

But I wanted you to know that although I love talking to you

I also want you to make love to me in my cold bedroom in this heat

But you didn’t respond

I feel sad but still have hope that you may feel what I feel

And you are just being a chicken shit

But maybe you will come around, thinking I might be who you have been waiting for